its not easy. to kiss the rain. (:

omg. im currently listening to "kiss the rain" by yiruma. i swear. before turning this song on. i was as happy as a lil girl that guy got a cookie. but now. i feel so crushed. like all the sorrows hidden within has became a part of my outer shell. and the worst part. i don't know why. or where these sorrows came from. i thought im a happy person right? but i guess. theres stuff in me. that i don't notice myself. ):

perhaps its the love that i have started taking for granted. the guilt that i've never felt before. perhaps i should stop. and take time to appreciate. who i never really appreciated enough.

perhaps it is simply time. man's strongest. and most profound enemy. as time takes away my youth from me. my childhood. into a world that childhood things are only dreams. while stress and sleepless nights becomes a part of my everyday life. omg. if i could. i wanna stop time. slow down each step i take as i walk the road to reality, through time.

or. could it be.? the weak self of mine. that admits all failures. all impossibilities. all disappointments. if so. how could i ever let it go? i'll just try to achieve as much as i can i guess. do as much as time allows me to. and bury all my failures. with sand of hope and possibilities. and not forgetting the roses on top. (:


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=so6ExplQlaY

so try listening to this song. maybe you'll feel the rush of sadness as well. and try to find out why. fix it. have a new beginning. a fresh one this time ;p

photoshoot. (i just can't take you seriously.lol)

AHHH. since im in toronto now. and its like summer. i decided to go all out in summer style. okay not really all out. but hanged out with friends. IN THE SUN. yes outdoors. fkin outdoors. im as white as my toilet paper. and now im starting to become the colour of the leather of my sofa in the living room. OH NO. the next time i sit there. i'll be camouflaged!? lol. COME COME. HIDE AND SEEK :D don't get scared when u think u just saw eyes on the sofa ;p ;p

anywho.!! i went photoshooting. failed hardcore-ly tho. but i still wanna put up some photos onto facebook. perhaps an album? but ngeh. the photos are so bad. i decided to only show them to you. (yes you mayzhee. lol) so here are a few. oh oh. note. theres somein abt the person taking the picture. that made me feel that all this was a joke. lol. "i can't take you seriously" was the line of the day :D

ahhh. theres more! but too many. plus im too lazy to downsize it so blogger can easily upload it. pffft. (: yea. so heres some pics from the beach. (:

but i swear. this dude is pro at photography. check this shit out yo. (nael. im being black again.)

so nice right!! (: my god. prooves that pics are better without me in it. lol

another one! truthfully. its not just the camera. its the photoshop. lol

surprisingly. this IS toronto. lol. not that sucky now is it! ;P

this is actually the beach that i went to. obviously. the pic was created from
many types of the same picture. get it? Xp

so thats all... from the beach. and no! im not gonna upload more mayzhee :D

- i wish id stop being a bloat fish. ;p

crap on my mac.

seriously. have you ever had a laptop. that just doesnt allow you to do anything ur mum would most likely prohibit you from doing!? NO. don't think nasty now. i'm talking bout things like blogging...facebooking...webcamming. pffft. (:

MEET MY MAC. its so old. its called an iBook G4. f me.=.= seriously this mac is not even capable of running mozilla firefox. and you know macs without firefox. its literally SCREWED. yeap. damn right. screwed. i spent the whole of yesterday trying to figure out ways to improve my screwed mac. ): but obviously i failed. now im using my bro's lap top. he prob doesnt even want me using it. ):

what my mac cannot do.



1. Let me have video call. cause theres seems to be no. NO. external webcams that are compatible with my mac.

2. I couldnt even comment on kuan yu's blog. you know how hard it was for me to keep that "HAHAHA KY." in me.! omg. suicidal.

3. yes. i can't even blog. the layout of the webpage just doesnt work right. everything's messed up when i wanna put new entry. and i can't upload pictures too!!

4. FACEBOOK. i think its more of a necessity now adays. but yet. i cannot upload photo albums.=.=

5. EMAIL. holy shit. did i tell you my email has like 2000+ unread msgs. shoot me. my mac doesnt allow me to check my email as long as its a hotmail. -.-



the list goes on. but ur prob half asleep by now. (:

but taht doesnt stop me from blogging! not now that i have my bro's laptop as a hostage! hoho.

peace out~

the plane that found its way to another world. O:

remember today. as the day i actually found time to update my blog! (:

with exams done and over with. i feel like a freed fish. moved from a small fish bowl to a bathtub (:

you might think i wanna now type a full paragraph bout my stressing life as an IB-er who doesnt even have much time to plan suicide. and how i probably F-ed all my exam papers. T.T but NO. i don't wanna think bout that anymore.

OMGOMG. how does a plan friggin disappear.!? flying over the atlantic ocean.. theres only two possible situations.

1. It crashed into a mirror to another world and broke it so it could move through it. and now it's probably still flying but in another effin world.!! OMG. so cool. T.T

2. But i guess with any cool thing.. there must be a sucky thing to counter it. so here goes. the plan probably. and perhaps some would say more realistically. drowned in the deep vast ocean of the atlantic.

the number 2 situation really sucks ass. why does it have to be the realistic one T.T imagine now... a plane with 200 + people... probably NEVER gonna be found as it is buried. BURIED. under water. (even i as a fish in the bathtub can't imagine anything existing beyond the thousands of meters of water...)

for those who still dont feel enough sadness after reading this... i guess you guys arent word people. more visual eh?

AHHH. okay i stop this... T.T just... wish all the relatives and friends of the victim be blessed. T.T like i said.. they prob found their way to a cooler world.

DRIVE YING. drive!

omg. now that i'm 17. i can officially drive not having to creep through backalleys to escape from the many police roadblocks. not that they'd stop me or somein.. i know i know. i look so old already. if wanna stop. go stop megan la! (:

Lemme Explain. why i haven't made any effort to go get myself a license. (and eventually become KY's DRIVER.~)

1.) I must attend some lectures. TWO to be exact. and both goes on for 8 hours. OMFG. thats. like. school!? O: but imagine. having to look at the same dude teaching for the whole day. bored until die! unless. it's a leng zai. but where got. always ah peks only.

2.) I must train for atleast. ATLEAST. 10 hours. in this kancil

OK. what's so bad abt it?? this pic here is already a nice version of the kancil. imagine it being used. 82937184723 times by unprofessional drivers (learners) like me and KY. over damn many years. it wouldn't only stink. and be filled with stains from the trainer's daily coffee. it would probably be demented as well. how can survive 10 hours in a thing like that!! ):

3.) i don't have a 3. what more do you want me to say la. !!

but you know whats so sexy bout driving about in that kancil.

you could take ur chances and go be nice to the driving school, and PIMP the kancil!!! and eventually star in KL DRIFT!HONK. if you see me overtake you in my pimped up "L" stickered kancil ;p

Happy Birthday, to me! (:

JAN 06

today was probably the bested best best birthday.! (: no, no drinking la! haiyo ;p but i did spend it with the people i lovee!! (damn gay, but shush.)

went karaoke-ing at redbox curve. how asian right.? but. thats how i roll? O: was planning to rob the karaoke system for my home but failed. it seemed like it was a part of the wall.-.-" so now i need to go get myself the HOW TO ROB A WALL for dummies book. mm (:

ok. lets fast forward to the cake part! (u won't wanna listen to all the singing we did that day. ;p)
SO. cake time! wheee. ;p

check. this. cake. out.don't you think this cake is orgasmic, worth a boob sweet~~ (:

THANK YOU BU FOR THE orgasm-full CAKE!! (:


i could literally get high off that. sugar high ;p

went home after, and guess what.!! ANOTHER cake!! omg.~~ too much orgasm for the day!! T.T

it's been 2 days since my 17th bday. and both the cakes are still unfinshed in the refrigerator. pfft. too much for us to handle perhaps. ;p

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I finally visited facebook yesterday. and oh gd. the many many many bday wishes on my wall! till a point that it seems so ugly cause everything looked like it was copied and pasted from the posts below. hmph! (:

PLUS. there were wishes from those people that are just...idk who distant. but me. being too nice. forcedmyself was please to reply all of them!! not copy and paste style sommore okay!! (:

nah!! to prove my kind-full-ness! :P


There you go. thats how my bday was. and the day after. (:

till next time ;p

Chic and Shuk celebrate new years too (:

I spent the first day of 09 with my bitches! i had to cut shave suki's hair, and this is how it turned out...

from hairy, turned botak!!

As for chico.! being lucky for not having a haircut... she was celebrating the moment. (:

chic is infamous for mistaking herself as britney spears.

ps. for both glasses my bro put it on right after without knowing it was contaminated by the chico. lol at u bro (:

HAPPY 09!!!! (:

31.12.08. AHHH. 08 (: has passed. and you wouldnt need to write that in the year column any more unless it's 2108.=.="

new year's eve. is not like any other eves. you gotta seriously. for real. go out there. and just be wild. (: cause a new year has began. and to cherish that, one should learn to leave last year behind! so yea. party time!! (:

BUT... not for me la ): just had a decent dinner with my loving loving loving family at a vietnamese place in bangsar one. (:

My cousin, me, and bro. *i knu i knu, how sucky can my camera be, so blurr one. idk too ):

My "so cool" bro dicthed us all after 8.30. lol (: but i love him!

Here's a dish, perhaps KY would love. flaming beef. (:

Prawns are icky. i believe that they were not made to be eaten. (: so burnn prawns burnn! :]

Me and my two lovable cousins who drives me around, but only for food. O:

So we scoot away from bangsar right after dinner cause everyone had their own plans. but me and my family were still lost, to go to curve? or not to go.

knowing that it's already 9 and by the time we leave the house again it would be 10... we were all afraid of the massive. massive. traffic at the curve. I heard roadblocks were put up at 7. -.-" and that last year, it took people 3 hours just to get out of the curve. =.=' i dont wanna reach home at 3 in the morning lu!!not when im with my parents. O:

Plan B?

we decided to head to the nearest place with fireworks and a crowd.

At 10.30 we found ourselves at mont kiara plaza, where the band ONLY sang rock songs. and we got bored so we went to solaris for a drive.but we got bored too. so we tried sold out. and there was some india thing going on and obviously we weren't dressed for it! so no other choice but to head back to the plaza.

we were lucky though. that it was 11.40 already. dont need to tolerated the sucky band that much longer. (: yeay.!

SO. in the last fifteen minutes of 08. i bump into hoho.! who was at that time looking for the washroom . jkjk. (:

went on the dance floor, danced to YMCA and other unknown songs. thn 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!! fireworks covered the sky above us. cheers from the crowd. hugs shared among all. and there you go. 08, gone in just a wink of an eye. O:

Happy New Years! (:

winter reads.

Although it is the holidays, i still have school work to do, and that is to read. read. read. and...read.! ngeh. unlike local schools, holidays like these meant complete isolation from school and work. *so lucky you guys*


so what are the books i have to read? firstly is a nice, friendly, 150 ish pgs book, "like water for chocolate". from the title, you can guess that it's quite a cute book. (: well the cover is friendly too!

i finished this book in 3 days since it's so short with nice paper and font. YES. done with one. two to go!!

This book was filled with recipes! and one of it was exactly what i've been looking for!! icing/frosting recipe! but.... cannot trust wan!! turned into balls of rocks and were just inedible cause it tasted so nasty!!

in the end, i was left with no icing, (wasted my 200grams of icing sugar and precise 60 drops of lemon juice!)but then i reached the next book, "house of spirits". by just reading that title, you'd understand why i dread ever picking it up again. ;p it's so boring!! plus the author wrote it for people that are english-ER then i am cause i'm sure if i had to check the dictionary for each word i don't get. i'd have to search the entire dictionary 10 times for every page of the book i read. pffft. SO here i am. PAGE. 4 out of 400 ++ (the plus plus gives you the uneasy feeling like the prices of hotels and karaoke places right? like wth that ++ can turn up to being 100 over!! )

OH. and check out the book cover. *like crazy woman, so unfriendly and unattractive.* blek.

ok ok. enough complaining. i better get back to actually reading it! wish me luck guys. ;p

(the third book, i don't bother buying or to read even the abstract.)

cupcakes. i like ;p

i wanna bake bake bake! i woke up today, had the baking fetish going all over me. but when i tried searching for recipes online, i just dropped and lost it all. pffft. esp the icing part, there's just too many different types and its so hard to know which is best!! ngeh!!

but thn i hopped on to facebook, and boom! i see these tempting pics from peihsia's page. and omg. here i am. phase 1 of my day. I WANT BAKE.;p


OMG. how sinful is that?! *but yet so adorable, a chirstmas tree cupcake! ;p


This is so pretty! i love the hearts ;p its like santa's beard on a cupcake. ;p what more can you ask for? (:

SIX OF IT, thats what i would ask for ;p so i can eat it everyday in a week, except sunday where i think i should head off to the gym . ngeh! there goes my winter diet. ):

- enjoying every bit of winter break ;p